Why Are You Here? (A Ghazal).

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A Ghazal is a type of poetry which has strict rules for rhymes and rhythm and it’s dominant background is mostly about unattainable love. It is allegedly said that the word ‘Ghazal’ was used to describe a gazelle dying of thirst. Many times it is quite  difficult to understand whether the poet is writing for his/her love or to God. It is mostly written in Persian, Urdu/Hindi, Arabic. But nowadays, the ghazal has spread worldwide with a large number of English and German ghazals adding to the richness of the poetry.

I’ve tried to write a ghazal, although I’ve got almost no knowledge of poetic meters. But I’ve followed the rhyme scheme. And of course, between all these, I tried not to forget the very essence of poetry – deep feelings.

Original – In Urdu (Devanagari and Roman script):

तुम क्यों हो यहाँ?

Tum Kyon Ho Yahaan?

दिल-ए-नादान दिमाग से पूछे की तुम हो कहाँ,
कुछ दिनों बाद वे मुझसे पूछे की है वोह कहाँ?

Dil-e-naadan dimag se poochhe ke tum ho kahaan?

Kuchchh dinon baad ve mujhse poochhe ke hai woh kahaan?

 

वक़्त-ए-मुहब्बत पर खुशबू-ए-बाद चली,
मगर समा-ए-आरज़ू में कभी नहीं सोचा की तुम मुझे मिलो कहाँ।

Waqt-e-muhabbat par khushboo-e-baad chali,

Magar samaa-e-aarzoo mein kabhi nahin socha ke tum mujhe milo kahaan.

 

बादल-ए-रंज रेगिस्तान पर परेशान होकर खड़ी,
अब किसकी सुनूँ यहाँ, अब मैं लूँ रो कहाँ?

Baadal-e-ranj registaan par pareshaan hokar khadi,

Ab kiski sunon yahaan, ab mai loon ro kahaan?

 

समंदर-ए-दुनियावी उलझन में आकर पूछे नूर-ए-आफ़्ताब से,
असर ज़ोर का है तुम्हारा मगर तुम हो तो कहाँ?

Samandar-e-duniyavi uljhan mein aakar pooche noor-e-aaftaab se,

Asar zoor ka hai tumhara, magar tum ho to kahaan?

 

ख़ुदी में तो ख़ुदा भी है हाज़िर,
मगर मैं, तेरा अंजाना, ख़ुद भी हूँ कहाँ।

Khudi mein to khuda bhi hai haazir,

Magar mai, tera anjana, khud bhi hoon kahaan?

 

लेकिन “राज” बे-आक़िल कहता रहा आक़िबत तक,
तुमपर श्रद्धा की सज़ा-ए-राहत तुम मुझे दो, कहाँ?

Lekin “Raj” be-aaqil kehta raha aaqibat tak,

Tumpar Shraddha ki sazaa-e-raahat tum mujhe do, kahaan?

 

English Translation (Without rhymes, just translation):

Why Are You Here?

The innocent heart asks the mind, “Where are you”,

Later they ask me, “Where is he/she/it?” (the word ‘woh’ doesn’t specify gender and is open to interpretations).

 

During the moment of love, sweet wind blew,

But through the time of yearning, I never thought where I may find you.

 

The cloud of sadness (or the sad cloud) is standing above the desert, confused,

It asks, “Whom should I listen to now, where shall I cry now?!”

 

The earthly sea, in dilemma, asks the heavenly moon,

I can feel your effect on me very well, but please show yourself to me!

 

(It is said that) even god is found in one’s self (or self-awareness),

But I, (as) your stranger, am not myself now.

 

But *”Raj”, the unwise one, kept saying until his #end,

When will you give me the relief of punishment for my faith(Shraddha)  in you?

 

*Raj is the ‘takhallus’ of the ghazal. It is a when the poet inserts his/her own name in the ghazal.

# The word ‘aaqibat’ means both end and new beginnings. It is a very interesting word and one of the many such features which makes Urdu such a poetic language.

 

I’ll explain this Ghazal in the next post. Thanks!

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It’s All In ‘The Movie’.

Life is a movie

A movie I see everyday,

Each day, yes, each day;

Make haste, make haste,

The movie must not miss a day!

 

“What type?” you may ask,

So great if I had known!

For so sudden is the change of mask,

A creation ’tis of your own.

 

It may feel like a ray of light,

Warming your black night; or,

Maybe, the light is dark,

Warming your house of ice.

 

Everything goes on,

Slowly, on its own; but,

All the bliss does stop,

If we overthink it all.

 

But many watch the movie,

With awkward seriousness,

They think all this is real,

They rot in ‘happiness’.

 

For those who missed it,

Oh, you missed it all!

Now our homes call,

Oh, dear sweet home!

 

WE ARE COMING…

 

Rihan – The Destroyer (Part 4).

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“Yes, Rihan. Good you came here. I was about to call you.” Rishikesh said, quite confidently.

“You people kill innocents in name of religion, don’t you?” shouted Rihan.

“They do. I am not with them. This was my plan to trap them and bring them in front of you. Remember, that day when tears flowed from you swollen eyes while you were describing these deshdrohis (enemy of country)? At that moment I had decided to write their deaths in your destiny. Here, take this.” Rishikesh offered him a pistol, “A clean headshot should do.”

Rihan was utterly confused. Just one pull and the bodies will fall, the stained flag of his revenge will wave proudly. The ‘Revolutionaries’ too looked like him, Rishikesh held his poker-face. What is the truth? Could he commit this murder without knowing it? He felt his hand becoming heavy…heavier…more…it was not ready to do the deed. His hands dropped the gun and his legs took him away in fast pace.

His mind was bombarded with questions. He stayed in his room, afraid of the dark world. He slept and slowly drifted into the world of dreams, the only world he felt comfortable in. He saw himself in a bus, heading towards Kailash Mountain.

It was Rihan’s dream to visit that mystical mountain. He had always felt that it was his ‘call of life’ – a call from the unconquerable stripes of snow. He soon reached the pristine Mansarovar Lake…pristine?! It was as black as sun-burnt flesh! No it was man’s desires that had blackened it. Before he could recover from this shock, he was teleported  to the Mountain. Where is it? His eyes searched for the divine Kailash. He asked a fellow passenger, he pointed towards a mountain with winding roads running like poisonous snakes on it and many a flags waving ‘proudly’. What! Was it the Kailash?! Oh such sorrow! Grief, darken my heart and make it non-existent!

He saw a poster saying, “Kailash for Hindus – The Abode of Lord Shiva. Get out Buddhist and Bön! Or else Shiva – The Destroyer will ruin you!!” He found many other similar posters all around; anti-Buddhist, anti-Bön, anti-Hindu, anti-Islam, anti-Chritianity, …

Suddenly, the place started to flood with more and more people…more…more! It caused a stampede in the once-desolated place!

He woke up…his breathing was heavy. Suddenly, he saw Lord Shiva standing in front of him! Yes, the same form he had long feared. He stared at Rihan. He got up and tried to get away from him. He was running and shouting like madmen, “Forgive me, O lord! Please!!” In his mayhem, he fell on the the Trishul (trident). It pierced his chest, passed through his heart and took his life! He exhaled the breath of death.

“How did this happen?” Rishikesh asked.

“Guruji, I have no idea. He suddenly stated to act mad. It was a accident. I had left the plastic snake in his room, I required it for my dance. That’s why I visited his room.” The man dressed as Shiva responded.

And the country still burns…

 

 

Rihan – The Destroyer (Part 3).

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After many years, his prophecy did come true! Both were released released from jail on the same day too! Rishikesh had won Rihan’s confidence.

“Come, I’ll take you to my abode – in the Himalayas,” Rishikesh said. He revealed himself as a saint. This didn’t come as a surprise to Rihan at all. “Where is your ashram? (monastery)?” he asked. Rishikesh replied, “The town is my namesake.”

Rishikesh is a religious town in Uttarakhand. Surrounded by the Kumaoun Himalayas, this is a place of divine beauty. As soon as they reached the ashram all people stated to greet Rishikesh. After they had settled down Rishikesh said, “Listen carefully, Rihan. I’ve got a very important advice for you. You’ve committed a grave sin by killing the minister. You need to pay back for it or Lord Shiva – The Destroyer, will destroy you. I got this divine revelation just yesterday. I care for you, friend.

Rihan was reluctant to do as his friend cum Guru bid. He was a Muslim, how could he surrender to the Hindu ways? And now suspicions grew against this man – Rishikesh. What crime had he committed? He had said, ” I murdered truth by running towards it; that’s what I did.” But later he came to know that he had been arrested because he had murdered a Christian missionary. But it wasn’t quite sure if he did really commit the murder or not…maybe that’s why he was released soon…

But Rihan had no other option but to stay, and was he to stay, he had to do as Rishikesh told. So, he decided to give it a try. He took part in ‘poojas’ (deity-worship)  and ‘yajnyas’ (fire offerings), etc. The moment he chanted “OM” he experienced unbound bliss. All his doubts were cleared, well, so it seemed.

One day he was strolling through the ashram when suddenly he heard a familiar voice, “Guruji (teacher), he can be brainwashed very easily. He is a valuable gem for us.” He peeked through the window of the room…there they were! All four of the ‘Revolutionaries’! Beside them stood Rishikesh. “Yes, yes. We’ll see. You’ve managed my work well when I was in jail. Well done!”

Was Rishikesh related to them? Were they branches of the same tree? The same black tree? No, Rishikesh must be the trunk of the tree. He stormed inside. They all were shell-shocked!

(To be continued…)

 

Rihan – The Destroyer (Part 2).

They prepared banners to be displayed and slogans to be shouted after the deed was done. They planned that Rihan would stab the minister while the minister would be hoisting the flag. As soon as he falls dead, all of the ‘Revolutionaries’ would go on the stage and justify their cause.

The day arrived – 15th August, the Indian Independence Day. The ‘Revolutionaries’ met and got together. They marched towards the college. Rihan had a sharp knife in his pocket. They entered the college ground, and sat on chairs placed in front of the stage.

The time arrived – the minister stepped down to hoist the flag. He held the rope in his hand, just a pull and the flowers would fall and the flag would then proudly wave…blood, oh blood! Rihan’s knife pierced his abdomen. All his bad deeds were neutralized, all his acquisitions were nullified. He fell dead; the evil politician.

Rihan raced unto the dais, he shouted out, “No minority, nor majority; throw away this inequality!”

But where were others? Lalit, Neeraj, Subhramanyam, Suvarna? With all those vows and dreams…in the name of vows and dreams! Where were they! Nowhere.

Rihan was stupefied. Oh, such betrayal! Police arrived at the scene and arrested Rihan. In court, he was sentenced for life.

Initial days in jail were traumatic for Rihan. Most of the people behaved like lunatics. How many of them were Revolutionaries (yes, with the capital R) like him? Wings of so many well-wishers of the country were ruthlessly cut in cold blood by the tyrannic government? No, the country will continue to burn. Such hopelessness! The world will burn!

There he met a man named Rishikesh. In all the chaos, he was a picture of calm. Once Rihan approached him, “Who are you? You seem so different from all of us. Who are you?” In a noble voice, he replied,

“I’m the wild sea and the calm lake.

I’m the Ganga and the Jordan.

I’m the Brahmin and the Shudra,

Shiyah and Sunni.

I was, I am and I only will be me.”

Rihan was quite fascinated by this introduction. Soon they became good friends.

One fine day, Rishikesh asked him, “Do you believe in prophecies, my friend?”

“No, I don’t.”

“Well, I think you should.”

“Do you believe in them?”

“How can a practitioner be a non-believer?”

“Oh, is it so? Then tell me something.”

“Well…congratulations, my friend!  You are going the be free before your term ends on account of good behaviour.”

“Ha, really!” Rihan mocked.

“Yes. And such a co-incidence (or is it) I too will be getting out’o here the same day. Now tell me, what are the chances?”

“Very odd.”

“Then too. I see so you’ll see.”

(To be continued…)

Rihan – The Destroyer (Part 1).

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Uttarakhand, in India, is known as ‘The Land of Gods’. So, naturally, people are quite god-fearing in this Himalayan state. But there are rebels, the ‘wise’ ones, who defy this orthodoxy. But fate doesn’t play sweet games.

Rihan belonged to a Muslim family in the predominant Hindu state of Uttarakhand. He was one of the ‘cool-dudes’ of his collage. He lived a crazy life. He smoked cigarettes but never even touched alcohol. However different one may strive to be but family values are etched deep in the heart.

Once Rihan was riding on one of those extra-smokey bikes when he met his newly made friends – Lalit, Subhramanyam, Suvarna and Neeraj.

“Hey, fellas! Wassup?” Rihan asked.

“We are not good,” said Neeraj.

“How can we, when our society is on the verge of destruction?” Suvarna added.

“I don’t quite get what you are saying, friends.” said a confused Rihan.

“Even I don’t get it. Why can’t my dear brother get admission in the college even though he had great marks? This minority-reservation; I just don’t get it!” A teary-eyed Subhramanyam said.

“Just last week my father was trashed by the lower-caste hooligans for no reason at all!” cried Lalit, “These people are taking undue advantages of their ’empowerment.’ ”

Rihan was quite shoked to hear these things. He had a soft heart of  a poet. He was a nature lover too. He couldn’t tolerate this injustice. “So many ills prevail in the country, in the society, in the law; in us…What shall we do?”

“Sarfarosh. Revolution. Revolution against caste-reservations.” replied Lalit in a stern tone, “We must take up arms and revolt!”

“Arms! No! There could be a different way. We can talk with the ministers, maybe,” said Rihan.

“Ha! Could and maybe in the same sentence,” mocked Neeraj.

“Oh are you a pacifist, then, eh Rihan? Do you know that pacifism has taken more lives than violent revolutions? Gandhi’s pacifism would have ruined us if it were not for the strength and determination of Azad, Bhagat Singh, Bose and many others.” said Suvarna.

These statements hit his heart and mind, hard. Yes, this was the right path, he was convinced.

The Independence Day was approaching. A minister was going to visit their college. The ‘Revolutionaries’ planned to assassinate him. He was a corrupt man. He was a fascist. He gave undue importance to the minority because he himself  belonged to the lower-castes. He didn’t deserve to live!

“The big question-who would actually stab him?” asked Subhramanyam.

“I will,” replied Rihan, enthusiastically.

“Are you sure?” Subhramanyam asked him.

“If you all are with me then why should I fear?”

“Exactly. Whatever happens, we’ll stick together, friends,” said Lalit.

“When the time of woe,”

“Would come after gone is the foe,”

“Together we’ll row,”

“To the Light!”

(To be continued…)

Kashmir.

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I have this strange attraction and empathy for the disputed territory of Kashmir. India and Pakistan have been fighting for Kashmir since 1947.
India controls almost a third of Kashmir while Pakistan and China occupy the remaining area.
Surrounded by the mesmerising Himalayas, Kashmir is known as ‘Heaven on Earth’.
Through this poem I’m trying to express this pain. You may click on various hyperlinks to acquire further information:

That’s enough blood for my soil,
I can’t drink anymore!
I’ve been burning like wasted coal,
My own sons have shook me to the core.

My waters are angry,
To rise as flood they wow,
Dear Jhelum kept her wow,
She killed her own sons, weeping aloud!

Three world powers,
None of which are beauty’s lovers,
Kill they do even the Shikara rower,
And red drops drip from the whistle blower.

Ask my sons with honesty,
What they want before sleeping in their graves,
They’ll tell,” Independence, liberty, freedom, Aazadi!”,
But deep inside, peace is all I crave…

When Shall the Sky Land….

when shall the sky land

The royal azure sky,

And the strong land,

Caught each others’ eye,

Like the sea and sand.

 

They rose in love,

To each other they talked,

The land yielded the rose of love,

By the stars, the sky, playfully mocked.

 

“O dear love, you’re so high!

How shall we meet, pray tell no lie.”

“See the horizon, you may not then deny

We shall meet, I do not lie.”

 

They tried and tried,

For the sweet pain to treat,

But they couldn’t hide,

The fact that they don’t meet.

 

Wet and sad messages the sky sent,

The land released the hopeful scent,

Though not together they could sense,

Something like their omnipresence.

 

Know not we what it is,

Hopeful hopelessness,

Or hopeless hopefulness,

Loving still ignoring the abyss,

Sacrificing the true love’s kiss.

 

Aisha (Part 4).

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Rajnish had picked up the habit of reading Shakespeare. He was a great admirer of the Bard. Once he recited the famous verses from The Merchant of Venice to Aisha:

The quality of mercy is not strain’d,

It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven

Upon the place beneath:

it is twice blest;

It blesseth him that gives and him that takes:

‘Tis mightiest in the mightiest…

Aisha was moved. Yes, this was the time, yes. She gathered courage…”Rajnish…I was behind your parents’ murder.” Rajnish’s body went cold, his eye eyes turned red, was that because of savage sadness or noble anger is a fact unknown. He got up, got hold of a hammer and rushed towards Aisha, she tried to run but he got hold of her too…he raised the hammer…and dropped it, on the floor; frustrated.

“No, Aisha, death may not take you,

As I, idiot, love you,

It is done – the beginnings new,

All this time, why didn’t I knew,

Your lusthirsty, bloodthirsty self?”

Rajnish headed towards the nearby river. His heart and mind were a boiling pot of emotions. Actually, Rajnish had secretly killed Aisha’s father- Ganpat, as his revenge. No one knew of this. He had used his political influence to silence his act. Now, he realized he had taken away an innocent life. But this evil had had no effect on the devil.

Who, Aisha? Devil? Evil? No, Aisha was more of an Aphrodite for him. But now he felt guilty of loving her when she should not even have been living in this world! He had killed he dear mother, how could he forget! But she had accidentally fulfilled an unconscious Oedipal wish of his – she had killed his father. But that couldn’t repay his mother’s murder. And after all, Bajirao was his father, his well-wisher. Oh, such confusion!

“Whose life to give, whose to take?

High are the stakes.

What is and what isn’t?

What should I do, what I shouldn’t?

That’s the question…” he thought.

 

Suddenly, he saw a human figure standing in mid-air, over the river. It was Rajnish’s mother, no doubt! In a dreamy voice, she said;

“You may think of revenge,

But not me may you avenge,

Because this all is savage,

The evil being’s beverage.

Forgive them, my son!

Forgive!”

The figure vanished in the air. Rajnish felt her presence. Omnipresence.

He was calm now, his path was clear. He walked on it until he reached a high cliff. He phoned Aisha;

“Aisha, you used to say that we are one,

So I am you and you are me.

Let it be so.

Let I be you,

And you be me.

I sacrifice me with glee,

May your beautiful life you see.

I forgive you, Aisha! Please forgive me too…you’ll soon discover if this is not reason enough. And I still love you!!”

He ended the call, ended his life. He jumped to his doom. He reached there. Death.

Aisha kept the phone aside . Beside her sat party members. “My work is done. Now you may carry on your promises. Make me the president, change the manifesto. Now, we’ll smoothly win. Where is the opposition now?” all laughed out loud.

 

Such a complex character – Aisha.

Aisha (Part 3)

Aisha (part 3)

Rajnish found the murderer’s knife. He submitted it to the police who, in turn, caught the hooligan.

“Tell us! Who is behind you horrendous deed?” shouted the police inspector.

“Sir! It’s Ganpat. Because of his political rivalry, he killed Bajirao.”

Ganpat was arrested at once. In court he confessed his guilt!

This is what happened : Aisha told her father about her deed. Ganpat said, “I’ve seen enough of this world. It’s your turn now. I’ll take up the consequences.” She declined, initially. But later, maybe because of her greed or selfishness or obedience, she accepted this proposal.

But Rajnish had suddenly disappeared. People said he went mad because of the great tragedy. But Aisha expressed her disbelif saying,

“If the Universe had listened to the masses,

I’ve been long gone,

We all would have ‘grief-passes’,

And my love would not have been lone.”

 

Then, after almost an year, Rajnish reappeared. But now Aisha’s love towards him seemed to dwindle. Nevertheless, Aisha approached him and kissed him. He said, “Dear Aisha, do you still love me?”

“Yes.” But  her voice carried a hesistative tone.

“Will you marry me?”

Aisha was surprised. All her dedication and love had worked.

“Yes! Of course!!”

“Shine bright  O stars, I’ve solved all wars, Nothing can now mar, nothing!” Aisha said in her mind.

They got married. They lived happily but not ‘ever after’. One day Aisha saw Rajnish taking an injection. When asked about it, he said it was insulin. But he took it just once a week.

One day Rajnish yelled, ” Hey Ganpat! Don’t you understand what you’ve done? Killing my loved ones, what have you won?” Aisha heard this, she was shocked. Then suddenly he started laughing, “Do you know why did the cat roar? Because the dog was w****!”   Then he stated crying, “Mother! O Mother! Where art thou? Ere you die, why didn’t I lie, on your grave?”

Aisha sprinkled water on his face and brought him to his senses. “Rajnish, what’s happening to you?”

“Injection, my medicine. Aisha, get it from the store, quick!”

Aisha brought the injection and injected it in Rajnish’s blood.

He explained how he had been in a Buddhist monastery in the Himalayas. Then he roamed the mighty Himalayas all by himself but all these couldn’t ease his heartache. Western medicine  was the thing which had actually helped him.

(To be continued…)